When in doubt, run, thats what i do best. Ironically, this time I'm doing it literally instead of emotionally. Thats right folks, instead of quitting everything and moving away from it all, I'm literally sweating it out my pores. I feel so healthy and grown in so many ways I even scare myself. I realize that i no longer can make anyone else happy, I just need to make myself happy and that's enough. If someone can run along side and keep up, then maybe they're worth it, as of yet, they don't seem to exist.
Its so strange, I was recently hurt by someone I love, and I'm fine, I'm really happy, I don't even hate them, I feel sorry for them. I don't really even know them, and they don't know themselves. Even better yet, I don't blame myself. I keep waiting for the old me to come back and be self loathing and tortured, but i'm not, i'm fine. I'm stronger than I even knew was possible. I'm excited, I've been given a chance, a chance at real happiness. A chance at not having to put in all the tiring effort on my own, but a chance at being appreciated and have someone do the same for me. Its refreshing, and this time, it didn't take much time to realize this at all...oh my god i'm a healthy adult (there goes my painting career). Blessings come in disguises all the time, I finally unmasked this one...Hallelujah!
On to bigger fish, like how the hell do the dogs always manage to Houdini their way out of the kitchen? That my folks maybe a question for the next TIME...hehe